I’ll admit that I had a breakdown last week. I realize I’m no wedding planner. Besides freaking out to several of my co-workers (sorry about that), I woke up in a sweat last week, heart racing, because the wedding was 7 weeks away and I didn’t have (1) a ceremony venue, (2) a dress that fit, (3) shoes, or (4) vows. My list seems to get longer rather than shorter and in case I hadn’t mentioned, we don’t have a place to get married yet!!
These kinds of things are not really my thing. I like organization and this mass cluster gives me heartburn. So Rob and I decided to go camping this weekend in the Ochoco’s just to enjoy the warm weather, get a good hike in, and forget about wedding planning (which one of us did successfully). But when I came back I made myself a do-able list of tasks for the week: ceremony and vows being at the top of the list. Rob and I have made the decision to personalize/write our ceremony and write our own vows – sounds like a fun idea, until you sit in front of a computer staring at a blank document (or stare at a napkin, paper, wall, whatever your outlet). Today was my first draft at vows and it has been a slap in the face, to say the least. For the first time since our engagement, I think I finally realized what this day is about. It’s not about the shoes (although damnit, I really wish I could find a cute pair!), picking out the right dinner (people will eat whatever we feed them, right?), having the picturesque backdrop for pictures (hello, we are having our party at a bar), or constantly trying to convince my mother that the ceremony is about me!
I realized that I am going to be someone’s wife in 46 days. And I am going to be that wife for the rest of my life. Mulling over the right things to say made me sit and think, why am I doing this? What does it mean to me? And how do I possibly express that in 150 words or less? The whole term “wedding” has made me lose sight of the “marriage” part. The whole lifetime commitment thing, that promise to love, to hold, to cherish, etc. One thing I am sure of: I am too lucky to have snagged this guy, so I better make it good.
In closing, here are some fun pictures of our weekend in the mountains. Nothing like a little mountain air and heat stroke to bring you back to reality. :)
Look at this spot we found!
We hit it right at sunset and the wild grass was amazing and green.
Did I mention we got a new truck?
Our little home away from home.
I had a little practice with the self-timer on my camera, bear with me.
Toyota ad?
On our hike up the mountain the next day. Hot and humid.
A rarity in west Oregon: green grass!
And wildflowers!
How did this picture get in here?
On top of the Ochoco's. With black socks.
Check out that booty!
All reflections aside, we were excited to get back into town for burgers.
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